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Darling sister,Thought about you a lot on you birthday. Wondering what you will be today. Where you will be, definitely not in the house in Alahkuma. Maybe married somewhere with lots of children. Imagined, I visited you and carried your baby, with 2 others running around.
Iwe would have lots of memories to celebrate.  You are always present when we celebrate yet physically missing. Love you lots

We die in oder to live. Isaiah said the lords vineyard is home to isreal. spiritual awareness and self love is what i learned from you. I still spend time with u by the river on your birthday. With tears i feel your comforting spirit. And i ask that u keep watching over us while we are still here. You say no tears but tears because we are still in the flesh. Love u sister. And im glad u stayed by me.

My lovely sister, they say time heals all wounds, but as time goes by the wound you left in my heart becomes more fresher each day. When we loose someone we love, the pain we feel is unexplainable. Sometimes we tell ourselves that it will be alright. It may be for a while but when you see another person going through the same situation, you relive that same moment. But what's Gud is that you miss that pain and wish it could last coz that's as close as to get to our lost once. But be strong for God is always in control, I thank the good Lord for giving me and the family the strength to go through each day knowing that you are watching over us all. I know we will meet someday and I will get the chance to show u and tell u how much I love u and how much u meant to me. But I know u already know all that. May the good Lord keep u in his bossom so that we meet someday never to part again. 
Yours was a life truly blessed and you touched the lives of everyone who knew you and got to share in your life while u were on earth. Thank you Lord for this gift you have me and I am for ever glad I was previledged to have been part of her life 
May you rest in the Lord my dear sister Amungwa Vesta Neh

Miss you so very much
Amungwa Ninian Chenwi 
 

Too many things have happened the make me wonder why you are not here. I know I could have talked to you, confided in you. I miss you much. Love you my dear. Still wondering where you would be and what you will be doing today if you were here

My dear children, friends and relatives,
To all of you who are dear to us and who were so close to Vesta,I apologize to everyone for not having being writing something here for a long time. Sometimes I think I just needed a break away from everything, including thinking of Vesta.I know all of you can understand how sometimes things just get so overwhelming and I just wasn't in a good place to post something here because being here to do it drags me close to my mourning journey from Abidjan through Nairobi, then the torturing wait at the Douala Airport, the reception of the parcel I will never finish opening and thereafter the journey home passing through Dschang the town in which she studied for more than  five years.Losing a child, a sister or a friend in deed changes your life forever,nothing will ever be the same again and all we can really do is try to cope and go on. This is what I tell my loving wife, her mother, all the time when I find her in torturing grieving mood.
We all wish we could see her again, say I love you Vesta, which perhaps we failed to say when we had her for all those 29 years, just one more time.At times the pain just eats me(and you too I suppose) up inside .But I always try to remember my daughter's smile and how much she was loved by everyone and I know she wouldn't want me(and you) to be sad.At times I wonder what she would say if she had the opportunity to experience physically(not possible though)when we are in extreme sadness because you know she was an infuser of happiness around her with her rollicking and infectious laughter. Our angels will always be right there beside(us and her) even though we here on earth can't see them,they will always be there,in the wind,the nighttime stars and the sunshine rays and of course she Vesta too will be there. I remember the second follower, Justin, told after wards told me how he managed the terrible feeling of imaginable loss by swimming out into the ocean, a daring thing he did, on the grounds that he wanted to get used to the idea that Vesta was physically gone but spiritually right there. I considered this very philosophical and please whenever her loss grips us we should just laugh and say why want I her  physical presence when her spiritual presence is better and stronger than the one we desire. I remember when I was shedding gallons of tears in our parlour, the parlour she had promised she would make a modern one before going to South Africa, Phelim, Vesta's fourth flower, came close, wiped his own tears and whispered in my ear, "daddy you are crying too much, just know that we are still there too", then I said, "brave boy, a very wise saying indeed, but know that each of you has a special place in my heart and no one can fill the gap of the other". It was hard for him but these were the words of a grieving father and I hope he can forgive me for not having pampered him for such wonderful psychological support he offered.
I know a saying that goes thus, TRUE LOVE IS ACCEPTING ALL THAT HAS BEEN, WHAT IS ,WHAT WILL BE AND WHAT WILL NOT BE.
We know Vesta was a very loving generous beautiful lady that would have gone on to  marry and become a good mother but did not do so because she died at age 29 and we will never see her physically again.

Let me share a dream about me and her. I always come to this website every 7th or thereabouts of the month and light a candle for her. One month I forgot to do so but she came one night during that month and took me out for a walk hand in hand. I think she reads our mails and when she did not read mine she came to visit me. This is strange but it happened in that dream.

Let us pray to God to give us the way to go on together knowing that she is with us in spirit because she really did love each of us unconditionally.

Lets make her have a good spiritual life wherever she is through our prayers and a prayerful person is a true believer and a true believer knows where she is and that it cannot be otherwise. We will never forget the life she walked here for 29 years but let us be happy that is in Heaven and say so always in  our prayers.


Amungwa Athanasius Nche